Do you know how it feels? Complete emptiness? You don't even try...You don't even struggle. It just comes over you like a wave, swallows all emotions. Maybe it'll kill me, maybe it will heal me. I just want this to end. I want to feel alive again. Sometimes I try to listen to my heartbeat, I try to prove to myself that it is still there. That this thing in my chest is still beating like always. I sometimes touch my arm to see if there's any warmth left, if there's still blood running through my veins and sometimes I start believing that I am not alive. That I already died. Everything turns to ashes and still I try to convince me. I tell myself that my world is still colourful. I try not to drown in this emptiness even though I know that it already swallowed me. But I guess it is just a phase. Like the sun showing itself after a dark night and bringing back all the colours we all love so much, my smile will come again, my heart will jump again, will beat and heaten up my cold body.

[...]Emptiness - It might be a dream that my own soul created[...]